What the heck is happening to me?
Updated: Jan 24, 2021
When I was first becoming aware of my abilities, I couldn’t find very much information about healers who could physically “feel” the pain in their hands or bodies. Most of the information I found featured people who could "see or hear" images and other information. The only info on the feeling part always focused on "empath" abilities, which was mostly emotional. Initially I thought there was something very wrong with me and it was extremely frustrating.
For years I suffered through massive self-doubt and did not feel comfortable discussing my interest in energy healing with many people. Eventually, the self doubt got old and I finally signed up for a week long intensive Energy Healing class. I decided this was going to be my "make or break" moment. On the second day, I sat next to an amazing woman and it turns out she had the same clairsentient abilities I had - I almost wept with joy! She took me under her wing and I am forever grateful for her wisdom & kindness. Just being able to share what I experienced with someone who had been through the same challenges gave me the courage to keep going.
Meeting the other healer was pivotal for me, but the most important lesson I learned was this: TRUST YOUR SENSES! Even if what you are seeing/hearing/feeling doesn’t make any sense - share it with your client/friend/mom/pet - whatever just tell SOMEONE! I can’t tell you how many times I felt pain or received an image or name that I doubted only to learn that it was indeed relevant to the person I was with.
This also brings to light the real issue behind all that self-doubt: I didn't believe in energy healing or anything I would have considered "woowoo" until I started to have my own experiences. I was TERRIFIED I would have to face the same criticism I was guilty of dishing out! My REAL make or break moment was about deciding whether I was going to let someone else's opinion of me dictate my experience. At the end of the day I realized I didn't care what anyone thought because I wasn't doing this for recognition or praise, I was doing it because I love helping people.
For the most part, I am a very private person. I prefer anonymity and try to keep a low profile, so the decision to set up a website and start a blog was NEVER on my radar. In fact, it ranked right up there with pins in my eyes or spending the day at the DMV. But no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, the idea would not go away. Those initial years of self-doubt & fear led me to the decision to share my journey in the hope that it helps others who may be discovering their own gifts.
Please feel free to ask me questions about any of this - I know how hard it can be to find relatable info!